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was never much but we've made the most
23 June 2012 @ 12:11 am
I wonder if I made a Statements tumblr for those of us on Tumblr, anyone would use it.   
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
05 June 2012 @ 02:47 am
Hm. Today is my 9 year anniversary with Livejournal. My most recent post on here was the 25th of November, last year. I guess I'll update you. Essentially, Ryan and I have been dating 4 years. I graduated college, after starting in 2005 and dropping out twice (and almost failing out this semester). I have a tumblr that I mostly post to (bethosaurus.tumblr.com) or you can find me on Facebook at Bethosaurus Barrydactyl. I'm looking for jobs, and my plans in my free time are to reread statements and metaquotes from the very beginning.

Also to continue Rosetta Stone Dutch (possibly start over as it's been two months and I forgot most of what I learned?) and refresh my French.

And try to get published (HELP ON THAT?!)
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
25 November 2011 @ 06:30 am
So my life is mostly on tumblr. I've migrated.




bethosaurus.tumblr.com
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
07 November 2011 @ 09:06 pm
Desert Bus for Hope is the internet’s oldest and most successful charity gaming marathon.

Created in 2007 by internet sketch comedy group LoadingReadyRun, since its inception, Desert Bus for Hope has grown from an event broadcast from a living room to a professionally organized fundraiser that has inspired hundreds of people all over the world to start their own gaming marathons. It takes an organizing committee of 12 people to plan Desert Bus for Hope, and a further 10 to 15 dedicated volunteers once the event begins.

Desert Bus for Hope is known for being one of the most participatory charity gaming marathons. Through the Desert Bus Craft-Along, people from all over the world help us raise money by donating incredible handmade art and goods for auction. Viewers can talk with the Desert Bus crew via live chat, ask questions, submit challenges and make requests so everyone watching can help decide what will happen next.

Desert Bus is a great example of what happens when a huge community of people from all over the world – organizers, volunteers, crafters and viewers – come together to achieve a singular goal. Since 2007 Desert Bus for Hope has raised more than $400,000 for Child’s Play.

So How does Desert Bus for Hope work?

Desert Bus is actually a mini-game from the never-released Sega CD game Penn & Teller’s Smoke and Mirrors. In it a player controls a virtual bus that drives an eight-hour-long strip of highway between Tucson, Arizona, and Las Vegas, Nevada, on an endless loop. The difficulty is that the bus lists slightly to the right and must be constantly corrected or it will crash. It’s the worst video game ever made, and we play it for as long as donations come in. In order to maximize the pain and suffering for the Desert Bus team, we have five drivers who must play Desert Bus for 24 hours at a time. In order to keep things interesting for our viewers we have live and silent auctions, celebrity guests and a lot of silliness.



DESERTBUS.ORG

go donate!

 
 
was never much but we've made the most
27 September 2011 @ 08:05 pm
Also, fun fact - I only should have class Tuesday through Thursday so Ryan and I have been talking. Hopefully I'll stay with him over Christmas break and bring Izzy with to introduce her and Emcee to each other, and get them used to each other. I'll commute 3 days a week and stay at my apartment T-R, and then stay with him Thursday night through Monday night. I'd pay for the gas and cat food and litter, since I'd be eating his food for free. It would help him get used to the idea of living with me after I graduate, and I'd be a lot less needy because I'd get to see him 4 nights a week.

It actually is a really good situation for everyone involved. He said he thinks he's okay with it, and I think he's just worried about the Izzy/Emcee situation.
 
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
27 September 2011 @ 06:57 pm
I went to see my counselor yesterday. I thought I had 18 credit hours left till I graduated, and he updated my file because it hadn't been updated - I only have 12 credit hours. :D
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
21 September 2011 @ 12:17 pm
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was never much but we've made the most
14 September 2011 @ 01:16 pm
What the fresh heck is wrong with me, I actually am reading a Slenderman blog in which I go "Awww, Slendy's such a sweetheart!"

... GODDAMNIT H(A)UNTING.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
13 September 2011 @ 08:33 pm
Oh my god I'm watching "Grilled Cheesus" and I thought I'd lose it when Kurt sang, and I didn't. No. I lost it when Sue and Jean talked about God.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
11 September 2011 @ 04:39 pm
Gretchen and I have started a sex/sexuality blog on Tumblr for those who want to follow. I figure I can handle most of the sex questions if she's not comfortable with it and she can pick up the sexuality questions.

http://sex-with-two-girls.tumblr.com/

http://sex-with-two-girls.tumblr.com/

http://sex-with-two-girls.tumblr.com/
 
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
10 September 2011 @ 12:17 am
Goddamnit, Rule 34. Why'd you have to hit Minecraft? I did not need to see a female creeper, complete with curves and boobsicles fapping. I HATE YOU.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
09 September 2011 @ 05:30 pm
It's weird. I measure myself by how good of a person I am. If I feel I'm a bad person, then I deserve to take laxatives and starve and purge.

Today I went to McDonalds to get food to b/p on. Outside was a homeless veteran who needed money to get a hotel room for the night. I got my food and pulled over and asked him how much he needed. He said he needed about 12 dollars so I went to a store and got 20 out. When I came back, he asked if I could give him a ride to the hotel. We talked about how he was a veteran and got shot and all his brothers and father died in Vietnam and he was the last alive so they pulled him out, and he was very polite and I was thinking to myself that I was so lucky to have a house and a cat and food to eat. He gave me the McDonalds gift card someone had given him because he wasn't going to be around town after today, he was going down to Texas to stay with his daughter.

I dropped him off and he told me how to get back to where I needed to go, and he kissed my hand and went inside to sleep for the first time in two days.

And then I came home and cried because sometimes I don't realize how lucky I am. I was planning on getting the food, laxatives, and then binging/purging and taking laxatives. Instead I didn't do either. I feel like I am good enough, that today I did something good, I can let myself be okay, because I am not a wholly bad person.

I'm considering going into grad school. My teacher thinks that with my interests in French, English, and Dutch/German, that if I wanted to focus on Historical Linguistics and especially the history of the english language, I'd be well prepared. He mentioned a few courses I could take in the spring to also help me out if I wanted a stronger background for when I applied to grad school.

I'm not sure how to do that though, I've only got a 2.7 GPA and I'm afraid I wouldn't get accepted.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
07 September 2011 @ 09:48 pm
Alright guys. Come at me. Dean/Sam or J2 fic. Best of, good communities, etc. GIMME. NOW.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
26 August 2011 @ 02:50 am
Tomorrow - trying again. Calling a counselor. Seeing if I can get counseling through the school or not. I need help with my depression and my eating disorder. I can't keep doing this to Ryan. I can't keep withdrawing from friends.

Please wish me luck. I have a terrible suspicion it will be difficult.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
25 August 2011 @ 01:45 am
i'm going to make a filter for people who don't want to hear about Ryan and also a filter for my eating disorder.

Let me know which ones you want to be on. (Drew, I'm adding you automatically unless you say otherwise to the Ryan filter :P)
 
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
08 August 2011 @ 11:37 am
Lately I want to post something on here but I can't because I'm afraid someone will forward it to my parents because they think I'm acting like a spoiled brat and blaming my parents for something that they don't feel is their fault.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
07 August 2011 @ 11:58 pm
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
06 August 2011 @ 10:51 am
I'm very sorry to anyone I triggered last night.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
03 August 2011 @ 11:43 am
I got my second loan for this school year. I'm getting 11,000 each semester which is a lot but means as long as I am able to get the class schedule I need next semester, I can graduate in Spring.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
26 July 2011 @ 07:34 pm
For anyone who is decent at making animated gifs, could you make me an animated icon of him trotting around?

 
 
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
13 July 2011 @ 04:04 pm
I received an awesome gift from mywhitenoise. TY BB I could use those negz calz chocolates. :D
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
04 July 2011 @ 01:07 pm
Ryan told me when I graduate next summer I can move in with him, since I'm already living with him for the summer and he really likes it. :)
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
30 June 2011 @ 03:07 pm
So just so you all know

I AM ON TUMBLR MOST OF THE TIME

Which is why I'm never on here

Add me if you have tumblr, I'm a following whore.

jira-rd.tumblr.com
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
27 June 2011 @ 08:55 pm
Fuck goddamn everything.
 
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
09 June 2011 @ 03:30 pm
Because I'm an idiot, I weighed myself.
I'm 288.4 pounds, and apparently 33% water weight, 34% muscle mass, and 66% body fat. ...

Yeah. 66% of me is fat.

I am absolutely disgusting.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
09 June 2011 @ 08:09 am
I escaped my eating disorder for almost two months.

My self-esteem improved by leaps and bounds. I felt worthy of love and happiness and health. For two months, I ate like a normal person and didn't gain weight or lose any weight and didn't hate myself.

It took two days to completely undo all that. Two days of feeling like shit and quickly unraveling.

Hello darkness, my old friend.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
04 June 2011 @ 09:51 pm
My twelve year old sister just used the phrase "no homo" on her facebook status. WTF.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
31 May 2011 @ 05:14 pm
AGGGGHHHHHH

Someone was talking about their boyfriend stretching his Prince Albert to "00g CBRs"

As I don't know much about stretching out piercings, I googled "00g CBRs prince albert"

AAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHHHHH OH MY GOD
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
28 May 2011 @ 11:25 pm
I have one of those friends who the two of us have like, mind-meld or something, because we are having a conversation via facebook status comments in real time that is absolutely hilarious and I am dying of laughing.

Seriously, I am going to marry this girl. <3
 
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
25 May 2011 @ 01:39 pm
My shopping list

milk
butter
8 pk smoked sausages
2 liter pepsi for ryan
coffee maker
coffee filters
whatever the fuck else I notice
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
20 May 2011 @ 10:49 pm
An average day in the life of Ryan and I

7 AM WAKING UP IN THE MORNING GOTTA HAVE MY BOWL GOTTA HAVE CEREAL

No but furrealz, wake up at 7 AM

Ryan: *gets out of bed, gets ready for work*
Me: *pads along behind him, sleepily kisses and stares at him, sits and watches TV as he gets ready*
Ryan: *leaves for work*
Me: *goes back to sleep*

I'M GONNA KICK MY FEET UP, THEN STARE AT THE FAN, TURN THE TV ON, THROW MY HAND DOWN MY PANTS, NOBODY'S GONNA TELL ME I CAN'T

Me: *wakes up, does a tiny bit of housework like washing dishes, showers, lays on couch and watches Netflix all day*
Ryan: *comes home around 5:30*
Me: *HAS DINNER PREPARED COS I AM A GOOD GIRLFRIEND*
We: *eats the food delicious nom nom nom*
Me: You go relax, I'll clean up.
Him: *PLAYS VIDEO GAMES ALL NIGHT*

OVER THE COURSE OF THE NIGHT

Me: *walks into stuff* Ow
Him: *ignores*
Me: *walks into something else* OW
Him: ...
Me: RYAN I'M BORED
Him: I'm BUSY
Me: Did you know that *interesting fun fact that he could care less about*

REPEAT AD NAUSEUM ABOUT 200 TIMES

Us: *goes to bed*
Me: *whine whine whine* Gimme sex sex sex I'm horny
Him: I'm tiiiiired.
Me: *whines, rubs against him until I get my way*
Him: ... x_x SLEEP NOW OKAY
Me: OKAY.
Me: Did you know *insert fun fact here*
Him: ... GO TO BED.
Me: okay.

five minutes later

Me: Ryan?
Him: What!?
Me: ... Do you ever think ... *insert random idea here?*
Him: ... NO. GO TO BED.
Me: ... okay.


















Me: ... Hey Ryan?
Him: OH MY GOD.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
20 May 2011 @ 06:09 pm
Me: Ryan, I shaved earlier. I cut my gooch.
Him: Okay.
Me: You don't care I cut my taint?
Him: No, not really.
Me: *picks up his cat, starts singing to her* I cut my taint, yes I did, it hurt so bad.
Him: Did you still want to hang out tonight?
Me: Ouch ouch my gooch hurts so muchhhhh, kitty, do you care?
Him: Well?
Me: What? I was singing to your cat.
Him: -_-;
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
18 May 2011 @ 04:20 pm
Got a handle of rum and the internet! Who wants to rumblr with me tonight? (Rum + tumblr, for the uninformed!)
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
18 May 2011 @ 04:18 pm
I return to the internet! I've been not really on because I've been at Ryan's but now I'm back online. :D
 
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
12 May 2011 @ 12:39 pm


Just so everyone knows - I has a kitty who is adorable. :D
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
12 May 2011 @ 09:20 am
Tiny frog discovered. FULL SIZED ADULT TINY FROG THE SIZE OF A PEA.



 
 
was never much but we've made the most
11 May 2011 @ 04:51 pm
I just want to make a giant post to everyone who I'm friends with, for the fact that I'm a very infrequent commenter. I read every post you make but often I feel like my words are repetitive or not helpful. But I keep you in my mind all the time. If you want me to comment more, let me know.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
29 April 2011 @ 08:26 pm
Laughed while blowing my nose and blew air out of my tear ducts. BEST MOMENT EVER.
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
18 April 2011 @ 05:39 pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJnQyrQuggI

JAMES MAY

OH COCK

COMPILATION
 
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
Intertube Records: Gang Fight Friday - Memebase

Guy goes into KFC

Me: Have you brought chicken for us to no eat?

Clerk: Is the Gang down to fight?
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
15 April 2011 @ 07:52 am
Rebecca Black FlowchartCollapse )
 
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
13 April 2011 @ 06:04 am
Debating throwing my scale out.

Started a pro-recovery/body acceptance tumblr.

Left all the ED comms I was part of and watched.

Anyone want to add anything else I should do?
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
13 April 2011 @ 04:29 am
So I'm laying with my legs on the arm of the couch and my head lower than my legs and my laptop propped between my belly and thighs.

And I shifted an the laptop fell and bonked me in the head.

Yeah.
 
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
13 April 2011 @ 01:36 am
So apparently I am in the mood for a picspam. A JAMES MAY PICSPAM. Yes, yes, yes. I know. Crush of Shame. And I don't care!

On tonight"s program, James has his hair in curlers! James rides a bike! And James holds some flowers!Collapse )

What do you think, Jeremy, do you find James May attractive?



... I'll take that as a no.

And on that bombshell, goodnight!
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
09 April 2011 @ 06:52 am
I'm sorry for all the dozens of my friends who I adore and haven't been commenting on very much. Between school and work lately, I've been exhausted. This summer, I plan on being a comment whore.

<3
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
29 March 2011 @ 03:01 pm
Okay, so who sent me that adorkable snail? <3

ETA: It was Gretchen. who also sent me this.



a++ gretchen, would lol again
 
 
was never much but we've made the most
28 March 2011 @ 11:49 am
Sooo...

I finally fucking understand how tumblr works.

http://jira-rd.tumblr.com/

Man is that shit confusing. BETH HAS A TUMBLR, REDUX 3.0

LETS TRY THIS AGAIN